Dear Santa,

Bring me all the presents you want.............Just don't make me pose with my parents!!!!
Love, Quinn

Moving on...

Now that I have completely worn out the work topic, let's get back to the rest of my life.

(hold please for baby smooching and belly zurburts)

During that pause, I came to find smelly baby poop so it was an even longer pause for changing a diaper! Which, by the way, he still has to play with a toy during to keep from grabbing the peepee at any chance he gets. I grabbed the first thing I could find, and that was the nose sucker. Who knew it would be so much fun.

Let me say I have been completely intoxicated with time spent with my baby! He is so much fun and I'm having so much fun! It is so nice to be able to see him so much.

With all of this extra time I am all set for Christmas. Presents are wrapped (except one that Quinn decided to open) and cookies are made. I have never been this prepared for any holiday.

If it sounds like I am bragging I am....and lovin every minute baby!

Been awhile?

Friday was my last day. It was a very emotional day for me. A lot of people said some very nice things to me. Management however, failed to give me a bonus and pretty much treated me like "Don't let the door hit you in the ass..." Ah well, I'll miss a lot of people. The girls had a going away party for me, and one of the girls got me a really pretty necklace. They had the upmost respect for my decision and made me cry. A few of the guys in the field even made me cry!

The rest of the weekend was spent Christmas shopping. We spent too much money!

Today was my first day at the new job. I think I'm going to like all of the incentives they offer. It is like having your own collection business, but working for someone else. You pretty much have to have a pulse to make a bonus too, so I think I'll do ok. I can really move up fast in there if I really set my mind to it. I just have to roll with the punches for now and act like the rest of the new comers! I had to sit through orientation today. I met this really cool girl and we had lunch and we had the most laidback conversation. No girly judging or feelings of insecurity for those few moments you start talking. Too bad she is not staying for a little while. She is a youth counselor and was laid off due to budget cuts. She had an interview today at 4. At least I had someone to talk to that was on the same page as me.

I’m speechless about the weekend. I don’t even want to talk about how dysfunctional my dad’s side of the family is. I will say they threw a little surprise 30th birthday (Early, not until February 27th) on Sunday that was very nice. I usually only see them once a year, so they got me some birthday gifts now. I will also say that my 14 year old cousin sang all weekend. ALL weekend. Not good singing either. We didn’t want to discourage her, but come on it would maybe have been cute if she was five and didn’t know the words or the tune to what she was singing. She kept singing Hallelujah and really, really high pitched. The next thing was her 12 year old brother crying in hysterics when Jay jokingly threw him over his shoulder and threatened to throw him in the snow. He was being annoying and kept flicking Jay in the ear. So he told him one more time and I’ll throw you in the snow. He tried, but the kid acted like he was going to kill him and freaked out. He sat on the floor in the corner sobbing. Again, he’s 12. I’d hate to see how he acts after getting hit with the dodge ball at school.

Work is almost done. Friday is my last day.

My brother closes on his house today. My 22 year old brother! Good for him. He’s going right from mom’s to his own house. No renting!

Oh the guilt

Not from me. I don't feel guilty for leaving. The guilt trips that everyone around me has been laying on me for the last 4 days. "Do you have to go?" "Won't you regret this?" I haven't heard one person say, "If I can make you part time will you stay?" Nope no fighting for me. I wouldn't stay, but at least I would feel like I made some sort of impact.

This weekend is the annual dad's side of the family weekend. I am actually excited to go this year! Maybe it is because they are coming around. This is our 4th Christmas without dad and they've all pretty much adjusted. Plus my aunt and uncle will be in from out of town and I've always had fun with them.

I wandered around Target tonight trying to find the perfect gift exchange gifts. I bought the 80's edition Trival Persuit and some old fashion popcorn popper thing.

I love to just sit back and watch Quinn. Tonight he did the funniest thing. We were eating dinner and his spiderman placemat was upside down. He took his plate and put it to the side. Then he moved his cup. He flipped the placemat over, put the stuff back on and went back to eating. I couldn't believe he actually noticed that.

No turning back now...

I QUIT!! I QUIT!! I QUIT!! What a relief it is too. I feel like this huge weight has been lifted off my chest.

I was so friggin nervous and didn't know what to say. I've been playing the scenario over and over in my head and I had some great things to say, but once I did it, I was speechless. I did tell him that I am hoping for no bad feelings and that my decision was not swayed by some of my co-workers work behaviors. It is all about the babe and my choice to have more time with him. Which is 95% of the truth. The other 5% as you all know, had something to do with the co-workers.

I'm still a little concerned of the outcome. You know when you leave a job, the make it sound ten times better for the new person. That ten times that you've been looking for them to do for you for the past 3 years, that wasn't possible until now. All of a sudden. I'm sure the new person won't be answering the phones, like I've wanted not to do since I started and I'm sure the new person will be separated from the wack jobs like I've wanted to be for the last 3 years. I'm not bitter though. I get to stay home!!!! YEAH! and I can't wait to tell Quinn!