Decisions, decisions

I got the job. I had the interview at 11 this morning. I was there promptly at 10:30, filled out the required paperwork, took a 10 question math test (if Sally owes $200 and makes a payment of $50 how much is left...), and went in for the interview.

It was a short session. 25 minutes. The commute will be about 20 minutes, and I'll be working Monday, Thursday, Friday from 3-10 and Saturday from 8-12. What is this mystery job? Collections. What do they pay? Not much to start. It just about evens out for us. My take home from my current job minus daycare costs, equals working 25 hours a week at a lower pay rate. This company is fast paced and fast growing so I think I'll be able to advance, plus they make commission.

With that being said, now it is time to say goodbye to the old place. I can hardly contain myself. I am a little nervous though.

I start on the 18th of December.

Got it baby!

I got the interview!!

One of the biggest reasons (beside the obvious bitch fests that I’ve had lately) is because my work load is so light and I sit here most of the day doing nothing, while those that have a heavy work load sit there most of the day doing nothing. Hmm, how does that pan out anyways?

So the big boss is coming tomorrow to observe our department. Mark my words that those people that are “so busy” will be the ones running around like they just can’t handle the amount of work coming in. Ugh, they are so busy and overloaded and wow this is crazy how busy we are, and look at us how we are just making all of this happen and….I could go on. I hate it. I really can not wait for the show tomorrow. It's gonna be great! Maybe we'll pop some popcorn!!

I can’t wait for this interview tomorrow and to see what this place is like! The shift is 3 nights a week 3-11 and on Saturday from 8-12. Not bad. About 25 hours a week and very little day care! More time with my babe and less stress. Eventually when my kid(s)(plural for the future) are a little older, I can go back to full time and move around in that company. They have growth! They have potential! They have work to do, and I’m ready to do it! They also give incentives to the employees. Imagine that, bonuses for doing good work???!!!!

Keep your fingers crossed!

Over ate and over joyed...

In between all of my endless ranting and raving about work I decided to have myself a good holiday and relax. I relaxed from Wednesday post work until today, pre work. Therefore I had a good, solid 4 days to eat and love my baby to pieces.

To sum it up there was on lot of goodies on Thursday, between gram's and the in-laws. Friday was a trip to Kelly's for a visit with Good Ole' Saint Nick. Warning to all mothers: despite your effort for your toddler to give a hoot about Santa, forget it as he will scream bloody murder. He will stop to check him out a few times during the countless laps he decides to run while waiting for this scary man with a white beard.

Saturday was visit the entire fam at the bowling alley night. Jay's cousin is leaving town, so they had a going away party for him there.

My favorite highlight about Sunday was that Quinn counted to ten. He skips nine, but ah well, it'll come. I was so proud of my scholar! I had group later that night and on the way was pulled over for running a red light...oops.

My other favorite highlight from the weekend was that Quinn learned how to drink from a straw! Good bye sippy cups...

My big news is that I am calling tomorrow to set up an interview at a credit company. I am hoping for this, so cross your fingers.

See how quickly I bounce back from stuff. I'm just so sick of things being so cluttered in my life. I'm sick of bitching about it and people are sick of me bitching about it.

I have to make squash tomorrow for the big T-day! Going to grams. My aunt and cousin will be in from out of town so we get to spend some time with them. Then off to the in-laws for pie.

I had school last night. Things there are going ok. I just wish that they would talk more, but ah well, nothing you can do about that. It's been 2 1/2 months since I started and really no one has warmed up yet. In time. Maybe we all need some drinks to loosen things up. That is always a good ice breaker!

I've narrowed the part time opportunities for myself: collections is a sure thing. Not something that I've always dreamed of doing, but you gotta do what you gotta do. Unless I hear otherwise, that is pretty much the only option to make ok money during the night and on weekends. Working on that this weekend....that and fattening myself up a little too!

Try, Try again.

I called that bank today and the position that was available was not what I was looking for at this time. Maybe in a few years. It was a sales position where I'd have be able to work days and well into the evenings.

I bought the newpaper yesterday and found a few potential part timers. We'll see what happens.

Quinn is in a copy cat phase. Yesterday he tried to copy every single word I was saying.

Me: "Jay"
Him: "Day"
Jay: "What?"
Me: "Do you know where..." (was interrupted)
Him: "da, da, da, ere...."
Jay: "What?"
Me: "Do you know where (laughing) his bag is?"
Him: "da, da, da, bag"

He also fell asleep in the cart at Wegman's. I had to take him out and carry him because he was in one of those carts with the seats attached to it and he was hanging by the straps. Here I was on the biggest food shopping day (UGH, rude people) carrying my baby and trying to push a cart with the other hand. He woke up right when we got to the car and never did go back to sleep.

Good news!

I received a call from that bank that I talked about yesterday. I have to call back first thing Monday. I am assuming it is to set up an interview.

I had to reprint that project this morning. She wanted it on heavier stock paper so I was doing that most of the morning. She compensated me with another $40 for my trouble. That was very nice!

We went to my friend's house tonight and Quinn was able to play with her little girl. They were so cute together.

Off to do homework. Baby is in bed playing with Gloworm.

I’ve been busy with this project. I’ve gotten over my insecurities about that lady. I was done with it around 5:30 last night and dropped it off to her at 5:45. I made $150.00. I think I may have broken the printing curse that I carried around during my graphic design stint. Every time I went to print, the printer was broken, the paper wasn’t right, the margins would be off or something so simple, just to throw off the print. No one seemed to have any solution for it either at school. I did just fine on my own.

I need to check myself. I have been so negative and such a bitch lately that I don’t even like myself anymore. I’m so unhappy with my choices that it is just seeping out of my soul and making me so not nice right now. I have nothing nice to say about much these days, so I just sit here and be quiet. I feel like I’m making everyone around me miserable too. Even the new people that I’ve met in the past month or so must think I’m some kind of nut bag. I hate this Rachele, whoever she is. The old Rachele was so nice and caring and trusting. This new Rachele, feels there is ulterior motive behind every nice gesture, compliment, or comment. I feel that I can’t trust many people, and I feel like I have no sensitivity toward anything. What is that? And why can’t I fix it?

Enough with the pity party. I was optimistic for one minute this week, when I got an email from a local bank’s HR department saying I met the profile of an account executive and asking to fill out a preliminary application. I really hope they call. A career move is the first thing I need to start feeling better about myself. Well actually it is probably the only thing I need to make me feel better. Everything else is not too shabby, but being miserable here is making me not enjoy the things that do make me happy.

customer satisfaction, 101

I'm at 99.9% now. I still have this lingering cough that will not go away, even after taking all of the recommended over-the-counter cough remedies.

Today was the day that I had to present the rough draft of the project that I have been working on. I was 15 minutes early, looks good. Introduce myself. Meet the woman I'm doing this for. Say hi to the girl I know, that I have been working with.

I went to set up while they finished their lunch. I was a bit nervous, after all this is my first real customer. Not my family member or friend or anything.

They love it. Looks great. I was so excited about that. We narrowed everything down and make the final decisions. Ok we're done. Everyone is happy.

Then it happened. We were deciding on a deadline and I said it. "When do you want this by? Just so you know, Tuesday isn't good for me. I have work and then school, so I'll be gone from 7 am to 10 pm." and then she said it (half joking, half serious), "Well this isn't about you, haha". I don't know this woman well enough to think maybe she could be joking. Maybe she was, and I'm worrying about nothing. I tried to redeem myself by adding, "your right, I could meet you (girl I know) during my lunch or after work if you want it for Tuesday". She responded with, "no I think we could do it on Wednesday or Thursday". I felt like such a jackass. I know it sounds so minute, but I felt like I lost the presentation after that. Then I was even more nervous, so I started to pack my things and I put on my coat, with coffee stain and all.

I tried to pick up the pieces with a conversation about my kid (which is what I've turned into because I do not do much else, so he's all I have to talk about to these people). We did have a nice conversation, but I was nervous and swaying (because of having said kid I still sway like I'm holding him) and I thought I had a booger so I kept brushing my nose with my finger. I was mortified. Here are these women, all dressed to the nines and eating their pizza with a fork and a knife, and drinking wine with it and here I am looking like a coke addict who couldn't stand still and can't wash her coat.

I said, "Ok, I'll get out of your hair. We'll be in touch." and left with my tail between my legs!

At least they loved the work I did! That was the plus!!!!

Much better.

I have not been right since last Tuesday. It started while I was at school. The fever, the aches, the chills, the pressure in my head. It went away Wednesday, but then came back that night but not as bad, Thursday night same thing. Friday night was the worst and I wound up in the fetal position in bed feeling like there were subzero temps in the room. Saturday was a little better but I was so sore physically. Both Saturday and Sunday I was waking up in pools of my own sweat (gross). Today is the first day in a week that I have actually felt almost 100%. I went to the doctor yesterday to make sure I wasn't terminally ill. Everything is fine. What ever I was fighting was viral. I can't just get something that is normal. I had flu symptoms and sinus pressure and the worst headache for 6 days straight. Nothing made sense. My body still feels like it was pretty beat up. Now I know that everything is fine and I'm pretty much over this viral thing, I think otherwise I am being affected by the stress. I need to take the responsibility level down a notch!

For those that know me, know that I am a huge hypochondriac, and of course diagnose myself on the internet all of the time, so I think I had some thing that ended in ...itosis and had 6 months to live. When I'm healthy though, I don't think that I have random diseases!

My school work suffered a little too. I'm going to see if I can email him my paper tomorrow, because my productivity level was at an all time low. Hopefully he'll understand. Back to the grindstone this week!

Late today...

Couldn't find my keys this morning. Still can't. Luckily mom is at my house today (switched from here normal Thursday), so I'll have to see if I can find them on my lunch.

Pet peeve...

People are so fucking nosy.

Adding to this post from yesterday.

Let me elaborate....I started my project that I had mentioned in my previous post during my lunch hour here at work. Normally eating lunch at my desk is a nightmare because they either A) think you are working or B) think you want to talk. There is only one reason for being at my desk and that is to use the computer.

So back to the project. I start the project by google(ing) pictures of diamonds. Well you wouldn't believe the comments made by on-lookers (or in other words, the nosy people).
What are you doing? Are you buying a diamond? How big is that diamond? Looking for a ring? How many carots do you think that is? That's a cool looking dimond? Wow, look at that thing?

This is the biggest thing that irritates me here. Get off my back!

I'm sitting here listening to the sounds of twinkle twinkle little star coming from the gloworm (go-germ) and the sounds of Quinn kissing (mwah) and talking to it.

I haven't had a chance to write since I've been busy at work with some actual grown up projects that they let me handle. Today I had a presentation on the company website. I made an appointment to crash the department head meeting to show them the statistics. Yesterday I emailed one of the guys to make sure he has the projector and a laptop set up for the meeting. This morning he walks by me 5 minutes before I'm supposed to be in there and says "I guess you need this" while carrying the projector. "I emailed you yesterday, so you would be prepared." I guess people still don't take me very seriously even during my grown up projects.

I met with a wife of a co-worker today who I am puting together a mailer for. We went to the Olive Garden for a light business lunch. I'm looking forward to putting my graphic design training to use. I started off in graphic design at Villa, and at 4 months pregnant, switched to business. I have enough training and credits to do it on the side if I want to. I just have to invest in the software.

Highlights of the last 6 days:

1. Took Quinn to 2 halloween festivals. One at the market near my house, where he won a fishey. One at the Eastern Hills mall packed full of kids. We walked around for 2 hours, and all he got was 10 pieces of candy.

2. Monday fishey died. Bye bye fishey as he was flushed down the toilet. Later mom stopped by so we dressed Quinn up for the 3rd day in a row.

3. Tuesday dressed Quinn up again for school then later for trick or treating. He went with his daddy while mommy was at school.

4. School. New teacher, new class. Teacher clears his throat and grabs his crotch every 5 seconds. Great for concentration.

5. My cold I have been trying to get/fight/get has finally surfaced. Not full blown yet. I made an appointment with an ENT to find out why the sinuses are so ick.

6. Today was hubby's birthday.

7. Target the day after halloween = some crazy people.

8. Today I wondered while sitting at the chiropractor why people who have handicapped signs on their rearview mirrors, have extremely huge, high up vehicles. There is the woman getting out of her SUV, she's 4 feet tall with a 2 foot drop and another 2 feet of seat to avoid, yet she's handicapped.

Baby's halloween costume: a dragon, no a dinosaur, no an alligator....next year he is going to be something that everyone can easily identify.